Here i am again....after such a long gap...and that too after repeated promises to myself that i will do it regularly....here i am coming back after more than a month; as always.
Coming to the point, I am still looking for some answers. For example, if i really want to be here or do i actually want to settle on this or THE BIG ONE, is this IT? I have noticed a considerable change lately in myself that i have started taking things as they come. Well, most of them. That would eventually mean lesser stress and upto some extent lesser responsibility or burden depending upon what your perception to it is.
There is not much happening at personal front too. But then i don't think that my personal and professional life out here is clearly, or even vaguely, segregated. This actually creates a bigger challange as i have to define the line each time and sometimes the two are so mixed up that i feel like retracting itno my shell. Just came to think of it that it has been a long time that i have been with ME.I remember sitting alone and thinking nothing in my college and even school days.Now seemingly i don't get enough time. I used 'seemingly' because i personally feel that we all have capability to take time out for whatever reason but for some weird cause we don't do it. Its been a long time since i had a long thoughtful talk with someone like i used to have with manisha or cheenu. You know the kind where you actually explain how the things are and how should you tackle them. Counselling type you see. To satisfy this hunger to counsel someone i actually started sharing my thoughts on the title that people keep on their profiles on orkut. Actually the only one i did this is Prabhmeet's sister Jasmeet. She and i actually shared a lot of insights on some of the good quotes that she kept as her title.
Talking of quotes, i came across a very interesting one today. And i quote "We thrive to know things to show off our knowledge." Its by Blaise Pascal. It kind of made me think and then i realized that how true it is figuratively if not literally. I am always in lookout to know something new because i am afraid that someone may ask something and i won't have any respectable answer or explanation. Its all relative i think. The way i projected by others makes me feel responsible to gain that extra becuase the reason they ask me something is that they are almost sure that i will know about or atleast can find out for them. This sometimes get scary.
On a more personal note i also noticed that once you are on your own and living without family people actually think or rather expect that you will have atleast one affair, one girl to go and make out with. Now i think that almost everyone thinks that i should have a girlfriend or rather must have one; and if i don't that translates to me being F*&^&*. But i thnk every relation comes with a certain degree of responsibility that one must be ready take. If i don't think that i can take it then i am probably good without one rather than failing it.. This strength comes from the fact that i have actually seen so much so early that i have taught my self to be neutal to most of the situations. People find it very difficult many of the times. I think that if its you can't control it then why worry about it.It would do you no good. And now i know from my personal experience that if you really love someone and you know that you cannot be with her for probably lifetime than it becomes more important that you let her know how much you love her and how important she is in your life.
So long........Good Lord....
Coming to the point, I am still looking for some answers. For example, if i really want to be here or do i actually want to settle on this or THE BIG ONE, is this IT? I have noticed a considerable change lately in myself that i have started taking things as they come. Well, most of them. That would eventually mean lesser stress and upto some extent lesser responsibility or burden depending upon what your perception to it is.
There is not much happening at personal front too. But then i don't think that my personal and professional life out here is clearly, or even vaguely, segregated. This actually creates a bigger challange as i have to define the line each time and sometimes the two are so mixed up that i feel like retracting itno my shell. Just came to think of it that it has been a long time that i have been with ME.I remember sitting alone and thinking nothing in my college and even school days.Now seemingly i don't get enough time. I used 'seemingly' because i personally feel that we all have capability to take time out for whatever reason but for some weird cause we don't do it. Its been a long time since i had a long thoughtful talk with someone like i used to have with manisha or cheenu. You know the kind where you actually explain how the things are and how should you tackle them. Counselling type you see. To satisfy this hunger to counsel someone i actually started sharing my thoughts on the title that people keep on their profiles on orkut. Actually the only one i did this is Prabhmeet's sister Jasmeet. She and i actually shared a lot of insights on some of the good quotes that she kept as her title.
Talking of quotes, i came across a very interesting one today. And i quote "We thrive to know things to show off our knowledge." Its by Blaise Pascal. It kind of made me think and then i realized that how true it is figuratively if not literally. I am always in lookout to know something new because i am afraid that someone may ask something and i won't have any respectable answer or explanation. Its all relative i think. The way i projected by others makes me feel responsible to gain that extra becuase the reason they ask me something is that they are almost sure that i will know about or atleast can find out for them. This sometimes get scary.
On a more personal note i also noticed that once you are on your own and living without family people actually think or rather expect that you will have atleast one affair, one girl to go and make out with. Now i think that almost everyone thinks that i should have a girlfriend or rather must have one; and if i don't that translates to me being F*&^&*. But i thnk every relation comes with a certain degree of responsibility that one must be ready take. If i don't think that i can take it then i am probably good without one rather than failing it.. This strength comes from the fact that i have actually seen so much so early that i have taught my self to be neutal to most of the situations. People find it very difficult many of the times. I think that if its you can't control it then why worry about it.It would do you no good. And now i know from my personal experience that if you really love someone and you know that you cannot be with her for probably lifetime than it becomes more important that you let her know how much you love her and how important she is in your life.
So long........Good Lord....
