Wide awake...

Here i am....sitting in fromt of computer at 0300 hrs in the morning writing on my blog. People would think i am crazy..but believe me..there are crazier people around....I need to go home for my exam on monday but to top this all non-sense i have not recieved my admit card yet....although the instructor has aplan for us...and a crappy one too...he suggest we go to university on monday hours before the exam and get my admit card...i don't know what will happen...i am not sure if my ticket to go home today is confirmed or not...website is dysfunctional at the moment....i was on waitlist-4 at last check whihc was yesterday evening.....

I am awake at thi moment becuase i was sleeping since 1800 hrs last evening....that was inturn because i was awake since 1600 hrs friday...that means total of 26 waking hours....and all this time was spent in office....yeah..thats right...i did almost back2back shift...don't ask me why i did that when i had the choice to return early and rest for next days morning shift...probably i get a high, some kind of intoxication by working hard....or probably i just want to cover up some shortcomings by highlighting other things.....whatever the reason may be....bottomline is that i am addicted to work...i just can't stay still....i have to do something every waking minute.....i can't even sustain a bloody channel on TV...just keep playing with the remote...as if iam intrested in everything on TV except whats on screen....Any ideas where all this is going to....please let me know......

Chardi kala.....

Whirrrrrrr!!!!!!

Everything just seems to pass by...i don't get enough time to do what i am supposed to do anyhow...everything is so..so .so.... so automated.....its all just passing by and i can't seem to control it....i think i need to sit down and take account.....but even that doesn't seem to be happening....how many times have i thought to do that....i can't recount.....i am not sure of almost anything.....do i want to settle down here...i don't know...do i want to immigrate...i don't know....and even if yes....when i am going to start the process.....when its too late.....its just a matter of coupleof hours to go and meet someone about it....and i am unable to take out those two hours...pathetic...shameful...probably now i would do it......bloody i don't want to write too....i am feeling like banging my fists on keyboard.....and i am going to just that ...you see what cmes up....,z;s;l'/;.,/

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This is the result of bangingon keyboard.....thats whats happening to me too....i do all the banging on my mind and results i nothing but crap.....Help me someone.....pleeeeeeaaaaaaaaassssssseeeeeeeee!!!!

Pretty Busy.....

I would rather say hectic than busy.....and its set to get even more in coming days....Its been so long that i had actually forgot about thiss place unless rabh reminded me....A lot has happened in this time....personally and professionally.....first off i got promoted to Lead quality in just three months....Every Quality senior exec goes thriugh the same for that matter...so nothing great except the position itself....THE BAND 5....
I have actually been super busy these days...kind of that we usually read in magazines and articles....firebrand generation..always ready to work....chasing targets...no social life kinda thing...only social life present is ironically on office premises......and that i think is not healthy...literally and figuratiovely....Another thing that comes to my mind when i talk about my ofice is that only stress buster that most people know or use it to get drunk on weekends...that is i think more like a stress ball..you press it for sometime and then return it to its routine position.....
Another thing that i achieved in this period that i succesfully manged to watch moview Silsila..one with Amintabh & Rekha...you have to see it to believe it how beautiful Rekha can look....She can give close-ups like no one else can and really mean no one else....and only Yash chopra can give you a song right on opening of the filem without even a dialog or situation and still manage to make it look appropriate....also the romantic touch that was provided two songs back2back in movie...i haven't seen it in any other movie....Neela aasmaan so gaya and Dekha ek khwab, are literally back2back.....Romance on screen cannot get any better than this....


Lord help all....