Point of View

I am not going to say much. I am here to share a comment that I got on my last post. It is quite a long one but that is not the reason that I decided to put it as a post. You look at it and decide whether it should  have been here as a post or I should have left it as a comment. With no editing it goes...

"don't kno abt the person or relation but thing abt relations is if a person is not ready to sacrifice, then it turns out tht person is selfish for himself basically every1 is but to wht extent tht matter... there will b extremely selfish people ,selfless people, deceiving people, intelligent people list goes on and there are so many differences tht even after so much human population no two people are alike... so one has to look for some qualities and have to let go of other as its very difficult to find all the qualities in 1 person... its better if you cud love as many people as you can... respect every1... n should always remember tht all the emotions, relations, love, hate, anger is all there as long as there is life... it all ends once the life ends... one should kno its origin not just the paternal ones, as relation ends ones the body dies, but something lives, even after the body dies and from whtever source that power or soul comes, its final resting place is there, as without the originator of the source tht is God (there is very beautiful line in Guru Granth Sahib " jiyon jal mein aye jal ghatana, teon joyti sang jyot milana" it means they way waves are created from the ocean and they merge back into them in the same way souls or tht living power without form or colour or shape is created and will merge back into its source, tht is the final resting place (God)) everything else is small and not capable of fulfilling the persons needs.... actually people should live the life like(once i heard a beautiful example think might share it with you) this life is like a party the world is like a big home where there are so many guests who are invited specially to enjoy and have a good time without much restrictions where there's hardly anyone to say anything but the situation turns out tht people become/want things only for themselves and become selfish they just want to love some people of their choice and hardly care for others when they could have equally loved everyone and wonder why they arn't happy... they 4get tht everything thts created will end and there's just 1 reality which never changes and was there before creation and created everything, one tht has no end and thts God, without beginning, without ends, beyond all forms all colors, just cud recall some of the qualities mentioned by the Guru and we become so much engrossed in the beauty of the house tht we 4get our origin and purpose... and funny situation is people start thinking its their house their life there party and they have to do everything as much enjoyment or achievement in this life in this party as they can and tend to become selfish or end up hurting others in the process of their happiness... (as they have gone far away from the reality) tht its not possible for them to think beyond it... and farther they go away from the source the more sad and lonely they become... when happiness and fulfillment lyes within themselves, everywhere... the most worldly happiness i hav felt is wen i cud make some1 else happy and the worst feeling is wen because of me some1 else becomes sad or unhappy... or if i do hurt some1... otherwise the feeling which i have wen i hav been lucky enough or the beautiful moments wen i cud feel things without boundations or in tht state you can say spiritual phase is so beautiful tht i don't hav words to describe it... wish tht moment cud stretch for ever i don't feel like asking anything or wanting anything its like all the wishes and dreams has been fulfilled... tht they are very small compared to tht moment... i kno no drug or nothing else is capable of giving me so much happiness or is capable of taking me so high... but unfortunately my situation is like even after knowing things i tend to make mistakes, at times i do act selfish, wht my grandfather use to say "haath deepak kooayn(well) geray" tend to be apt for me... God's goona say dude u knew and still u mess up... so i try not to mess up and normally like and respect everyone and there are hardly any conflicts in my life, i see conflicts in others life and at times it become difficult for me to explain things to others but, this is life the creator, one who has created things is looking after it as well and he surely does a lot better job then i guess i can do so i don't even worry now... just be happy.. the minute you ar ready to scarifice knowing tht all the relations from mother father to friends to lovers to wifes will end with this life anf if u get a rebirth everything will start again new parents new friends new family new wife new commitments... and if even in tht life u live the same way guess tht life is wasted again n i guess (its quite futile to hate or waste the life in these things) unless guess God himself show mercy and wants the other to be pulled out as i have realised tht if i think tht m so capable, i cud pull myself n can kno all things and can get out of it... i cannot... unless rab khud mehar kare... so i can humbly prey tht he/ she might get peace soon and live life happily in God's HUKUM...

so i guess u can live happily love as many people as you can sacrifice as much as you can respect everyone as there's no one above or below you, every 1 is equal... from a kid to an extreme adult... everyone should be respected and least you can do is to accept the God's HUKUM and be happy... at times i feel tht people actually have nothing in their hands, as whtever the God has decided, will happen and only, the one, who is more powerful then God can change n thts not happening... so things ends here on him there's nothing without him.. i guess the poeple he blessed with fighting they fight, the ones he has blessed with loving they love, the ones he has blessed with working they work, the ones he has blessed with sleeping they sleep, the ones he has blessed with his name keep praying and the ones he has blessed with having faith in him have faith in him and the ones he has blessed with not believing does not believe in him God i can keep on writing his qualities feel like they never gonna end and someone like me he has blessed with thinking, thinks... so if you get something from here in normal language good otherwise the best source of knowledge is guru, guess when the time to learn comes people learn... so i want to end everything on him as i cannot think anything without him or beyond him he just in everything i can think about, n i guess m not gonna describe everything thts not possible as well... because his region is limit less, like him... so here i stop...

God bless waheguru...

Desh"

Decisions....

I was watching a movie the other day...One of the characters in the movie said that every decision has a reason. Go, find out the reason behind 'her' decision. That made me think & so I realized that it was so true. People may act as dynamic as they want and talk about deciding in shortest possible time but the truth is that no one decides on anything without any reason attached to it. Now the reason in itself maybe insignificant but since a decision involves two or more choices there is always a decider, a reason to pick one choice over the other; and it may be just pure bias or a choice based on past experiences but the 'Reason' is a sure thing. 

There is a reason to deciding to write about this now even though the Movie in question was watched last weekend & No, its not lack of time. The reason is a conversation I had with someone last night. Let's call him/her X. The conversation started on the usual light note discussing career, office politics and all and ended up on life's bad face. The direct result of our decisions. How does decisions affect our relations. Should we be even analysing and deciding about relations? X was so distressed that it felt like he/she needs someone to be close and let him/her vent out.  And all I could offer was silence.I didn't have answer to even one of the many Why's that conversation descended upon. Why do people have to weigh & analyse relations? Why does it happen only to me? Why does it have to be like the way it is? Why can't we be the way we want to be? and biggest of them all that me made me feel like crying, Why do we have to make decisions for our relations. I guess many of you might have guessed who I was talking to but that is not point, and it is insigificant, especially when the questions were so valid. Now it may sound rhetorical but believe me, it is very disturbing.I wanted to be so with him/her at that time but it all ended up in a silent closing of the call. Couldn't get my mind off it later.

Was my decision about you know what right? Shouldn't I be making choices that I made? Was it wrong to chose one of the two?

Still looking for answers...

Quite upset...Bursting !!!

I am truly upset with whatever happened yesterday at office... Some bloody rumors and I am blamed for it whereas I wasn't even bloody involved in it... I know its too many "bloodys" in a sentence but that is how I feel at this time... Bloody couldn't sleep well due to this F$%(%^ crappy thing going on in office....I think I will...I don't know what will I do... It seems so out of control... I am going to......aaaarrrgggghhhhhh!!! I bloody can't even say what I am thinking right now....

With these kind of people and confronting attitude, now I seriously think that this process is not going anywhere but the dumps....Its the decline of great Core... The best process of all is turning out to be a nightmare... and its all due to some poor vision and extremely short sighted approach... I mean what are people thinking...Seems like its in trend to consider the other party a fool and a complete idiot... Be it internal or external...I am not sure if I want to work here anymore...I am extremely disappointed with the way things turned out to be...Seems like the bubble has finally burst... I don't want to move out.. I like the place the people around me..but it's the atmosphere these days that is getting on my nerves now.... I don't think I would stay if I have the opportunity to move.... God knows what or where I might land up... I think it's time to look for alternatives.... PR here I come....

Shanti Shanti Shanti.....

Dost...Friends..Us...

I have just watched Dil Chahta hai.... I don't know how many times have I watched it....It doesn't make any difference to watchability....great re-playability... There are other movies with greater replay value but this one has got what no other movie has...It's got a different Point of View of friendship..... A highly realistic take on it... There has been other movies based on friendship as well but this one views it on a really different tangent... One specific thing that makes it different from other movies like sholay, dosti & Jaane bhi do yaaro is that it doesn't projects a friendship where a friends are under constant obligation of one another.  It floats on the basic premise of friendship based on understanding and intents...

For example, Aamir khan dunks Saif when he tells his girlfriend that Saif wasn't with him... but Saif doesn't react on it too much....Just a grunt and that's it....Why? Even though that made Saif breakup with his Girl doesn't make him dump Aamir...because he understands that that's how he is... This and other such demos of Mutual understanding is what makes it different from lot off other 'dosti' movies... 

It is not Zen to think that great successful friendship has lasted on the fundamental rule of understanding and giving room to each other.... Thinking about which also takes my thoughts to another dimension...Marriage.... Aren't good successful marriages based on the same fundamental premise... Can a marriage, be it love or arranged, be successful without these two things... Can any relation for that matter.... 

Then there is another essential but highly overlooked ingredient to this...Effort..yep you need to put in effort to conduct any relation.... It could be making an  effort to call by taking time off your "busy" schedule or visiting the people.... and its our own responsibility to make that effort. Its NOT OK to wait for other one to do it... I can't wait for him or her to make this effort... It might never happen...He could be thinking the same.... I can't risk it.. So I do it... People ask me sometime...Why do I have to do it...Why can't they come over.... But I tell them that someone has top make the effort to carry the relation... I chose to say carry the relation because that's How I look at it... I don't say its a burden that we carry, but I just say that we carry it.... 'Coz its our own conscious decision to continue a relation...Even blood relations are not spared of this choice...I have seen people not talking to their own brothers and sisters...This doesn't mean that they did not earlier as well. Somewhere down the line they decided to not to keep any relation with each other.... I have limited myself to a customary acknowledgment with some people who are related to me in some way... just a hello and that's where it all ends... 

I think I am digging too deep into this at the time....We will talk about it some other time... May be next time...:-) I have to make an effort to drag myself to market...I need some essentials...

Go ahead... Make your effort today... Don't under estimate it...Its a great thing to do...
Make some effort...

Assurance...

This is going to be a short post...I don't want to say anything this time... I just want to assure you guyz that its not on mind actively anymore... A lot of water has passed under the bridge... I chose to say 'actively' because I don't think I can just wipe it out but it can definitely be phased out... So coming back to point...

Sharirik kamzori kamzori nahi hundi...Mansik kamzori nahi honi chahidi...

And I am mentally as strong  as I was back in days...Anytime..Anyday...Anywhere....

The topic stands closed.... Peace to all....

Operation Growth...

Finally there is some progress on skill enhancement for next level..or so it seems like... My manager talked to me about the lefttover conversation that I wrote about sometime ago....He suggested that I get invloved in some new projects & attend client calls...This may not ensure any particular skill enhancement but will definitely provide the much needed exposure....I chose to use MAY here becuase I think talking to client and presenting the current position is as good a skill as anything else... So I took this opportunity when it was offered that is today.....I am yet to see the kind of talking that we need to do in order to get it right....

   However I have this big problem that I don't want to interfere in my plans...THE BASIC KRAs...Lets see how things shape up....

Love help all.....   

What!!! What? Whaatt???

I am feeling a bit unorganized these days..... Unable to concentrate on certain MUST DO things...like my KRAs at office and so on.... I am a bit confused too these days...I don't know about what though.... Its a tough time I know 'coz I can feel it...The heat is on....Menatlly...As JK Rowling put it in Harry Potter books...Its cold and hopeless around...Seems like Dementors are here..... I am not afraid....but just kind of confused.... Unable to concentrate is a big problem especially in kind of environment I am working in....I know I have to take care of it.... So thought of writing it down for easy digestion ..;-)......
There are confusions on personal front as well.... Not directly with me but about people around me.....One of us has decided to switch the girl he wants to marry....Its quite confusing provided he was hell bent on another girl sometime ago....actually just a couple of weeks ago....Sunny isn't too happy about his new position...He kind of feels that it is less challenging than what he is used to....
Anywayz I am going to wind it up hoping that I will find my rhythm soon...Soon enough to actually use it....

Festivities Ahoy....

Hey its MArch...Springtime....I was reading an article in one of the newspapers..It was about a letter from a woman in big city to anther one in small town... it said that "It must be spring time there, but we only have March". Technically its the same but if you look at the intentions and the feeling behind it goes way beyond words.....

Something as simple as a month turns out to be a totally different world and panorama for some one else....Things are kicking in and March is THE busiest month of the year in financial world....Indian financial world...After all the its the year ending....Everyone rushes to fill their ITR.... But should we not stop to smell the flowers... I know Robert Frost said that its miles to go before I sleep...but isn't it to long of a journey to be actually worth it....Placing things in perspective is as important as actually having them or experiencing them...I find it of no use to own something and not experience it..... After all if I have invested anything in it, money, time or effort, I should be rewarded fully for it..Value is the real offer in here...

So coming back to original question..Is it worth it.....All this journey...Aimless wandering....Zero chase....Wild one too.... 

I need light.....Lord give all...

A New Art.....

Its a new thing.... Maybe its not what I should write about..but I consider art separate from religious beliefs.... I have leart to roll a joint... A smoke joint.. It doesn't mean that I smoked it too... It was just a wild thought that crossed my mind and Sachin obliged.... It was a nice experience to roll a joint being so detached to smoking actively..... I categorically chose to say actively here because I smoke passively... And in the kind of environment that I work in its quite unavoidable.... I hope you guyz understand the gravity of not being part of sutta break... You miss on all the grapevine.... Just wanted to let you know...
So long...Good lord be with everyone....

Mayday..Black Hawk Down...

Jot is married now and we have another loss to the club.....Anyways it was inevitable... Maybe delayed but bound to happen... Like many other things.. probably my own marriage... But thats secondary thought considering my plans to hold it till next level..officially...  

  Coming back to Jot's wedding, I don't mind saying that it was most pompous wedding of all that I have seen in such relation at any time.. Whole wedding procession was on chariots..Yes you read it right... 4 of them all... The procession marched thru the province going along GT road and then towards Amritsar bypass to PAP campus... Thats where the destination was... And bride was brought home in chariot too.. Quite like Kings... It was 4 days of pure busyness and fun ... I chose to write busyness first because that is what it was primarily... There was a very distracting act at the marriage though... There were way too many celebrities invited by the Bride's side... Master Saleem, Rai Jujhar, Sarabjeet Cheema & Firoze khan among others..Yes there were more too... People were engaged with them rather than Bride & Groom...  Cheenu found it highly disturbing and frustrating.... Nevertheless, they were invited so they came..

    All in all it was a fun four days.. I didn't miss office... I guess no one does, unless they are sitting there doing nothing.... Clearly, no one is workaholic at the core.. You are tyhere for as long as you are there... I didn't realize where the four days went..I had elaborate plans to spend these four days.. To meet KD and go to Kosmic world were one of many programs on my agenda on this trip...  But what is past is outof scope any how.. So I will wait for the next trip... 

So long... 

Be there Do it...

Another one down...More to go...

We have another casualty in charra brigade... Jagpal is married now.... We lost another soldier and married platoon gained one.... Anyhow.. in a bigger view it all equals out because losing two soldiers(Bride & Groom) from charra brigade paves way for more soldiers to come(Kids of course...)

So there is no way charra brigade is getting new recruits if we don't lose soldiers to married platoon.... I will soon post some pics on my picture album at picasaweb....Of course the album would be available to only selected few on invitational basis only...

On a professional front, everything is not as jolly... Everyone has started feeling the heat around and few have got some burns too... Not to mention cold shoulders from managers when it comes to taking a stand that is in direct contradiction of current situations but was a prevailing scenario sometime ago... It feels like ethics have no meaning whatsoever and only way to survive is to kill someone else... SYA is the name of the game in here.... and like everyone else...front like gets the most casualties.... I don't understand how can I penalise someone for what we have been encouraging them to do... We own all the moral responsibility of behaviour of someone who is directly influenced by our actions and advise.... I think the problem is in the big picture... Seemingly, people at the top are looking at some big picture which they are not sharing with lower levels and still expect them to understand all the crticalities.... Its like dictating someone about a landscape and expecting them to paint it exactly like it is without even seeing it..I don't know where it all is going to land up.....

Coming back to jolly things, jot's marriage is cheduled for next... FYI, Jot is Cheenu's brother...Cheenu is is arriving here tomorrow to attend the marriage...I have taken some leaves from office too.. Hopefully we will have a blast of time.... Rest all is to be decided by the fate....

Peace to all.......

Ready for it??? Not yet....

I have been under immense pressure to inevitable...THE MARRIAGE.......Yes my frenz...everyone is trying to get me married...Earlier I thought that its only my family who is trying to push me into it....I soon realized I was under misconception because there were more people to it....Not immediate family but yes...quite close...And today I realized how immensely everyone is looking toward me for marriage.....I received a phone call from a total stranger ...(He was stranger to me, not to my family though) and he asked the question point blank....I decided not to talk to this unexpected caller & handed over the phone to Mom... Mom however forwarded the same answer that I had for him...1-2 years atleast before I decide to jump the gun.....

This makes me think of something else as well...What if I decide not to marry at all.. Is it even a possibility?....Will I be able to do it? How will everything end up??? Are we going to see what we are trying to forget..Again??? Maybe...Maybe not....But one thing is for sure....I am not sure if I would marry or not.......

Live life....

Fear or Terror.....I am thinking...

Hey there....Back again after a long stint....Have been busy in too many things in recent past...November to February being the peak season for our LOB, I have been hell lot of busy...Busyness to the extent of being hectic.....Infact we started joking about being overworked and underpaid.....Second I had undergone a minor chest surgery...It was a an abscess of 5X5 cms and had to be removed surgically....I did not need to stay in hospital for long.....Just a day and that too, to complete cashless formalities...Max HealthCare hospital it was...and quite a good one too....Unexplainable, majority of staff was from down south....On the contrary most of the doctors were from closer regions....I didn't get the reason for it because I saw a similar arrangement in Columbia Asia hospital as well, where I went for the initial diagnosis. Probably a bigger talent pool down there for nursing....

I have been thinking about another thing in recent past...Terror of another kind...I realized that it doesn't have to be killing or a massacre to terrorize people...Terror by definition is a overwhelming feeling of fear....So the current financial and economic situations is more terrorizing to a lot of people than 26/11 attacks in Mumbai.....Job cuts, Salary cuts, No appraisals...I can keep on counting the weapons of economic fear.... People have lost sleep over uncertain things...Going to office & not knowing if they would go to same job next day...or for that matter will they have a job at all or not....Thinking about which I have been worrying a lot..No I am not worried about the layoff.... I am worried about my performance and growth opportunities.... I don't want to be the one waiting for so long to move to next level so that I might need to think that I am in here for too long... But the kind of discussions and perception that I have been and projecting makes me rethink about my suitability... and I have also seen that your image plays an important, almost deciding, role in your growth...You have to be either complete crap or a total asset to be moved to next level.... and I don't think I fall in any of the categories.... Being somewhere in there is a really dangerous territory... Not unchartered but really crowded....and that has been my strength all along to be in there and above them.....
I am going to talk to my mangers about it now... I think I would do it sooner than expected...Although I know one them would say that its a bit too early to talk about it as I am not eligible for movement anyhow..HR policies you know... So its time to perform and not worry....

On personal front, She and me are on talking terms again..Though she is still sarcastic about lack of contact from my side....Sometimes I think that I may...forget it...I will close the day here......See you soon...
Life cares....

Wishes...Good times???

Hi All,
I wish you a very happy and fulfilling rest of the year.. I can't wish for the days that have passed..right?? Anyways, the time truly is for celeberations and leave the past behind in last year...and embrace what is to come this year..Though the year doesn't look bright on international level..I mean look at Israel's attack on Gaza...Pakistan versus India standoff....LeT in J&K...LTTE in Sri lanka....It all is a very grim picture and we all are testifiers to this time...I don't consider this time as 'I was there' moment..Actually I don't remember any time in recent past that qualifies for the title....
Anywayz the point in conversatin is to try and get this year straightened out... for ourselves atleast...This may sound mean but charity begins at home... I need to reform myself first before trying it on someone else... So leaving International tensions at international levels I am going to TRY to fix myself up..This starts with better time management...I think if I start to manage my time efficiently, that I agree I waste a lot, I can make things happen like no one else has done it before....So I am going to prioritize things a bit. I have tried it for sometime and it worked but couldn't keep it going for long... I hope to keep this one going for quite some time....

Light to All....

To Own or not to Own...

Hey Frenz!!! I am back....and I am into serious thinking about settling down.....And I am not saying this without any reason. For the first time in last two years, that is for the time I am here, thought to own a home has crossed my mind, and that too not once. I am thinking of owning a place so I believe that translates to thoughts of settling down..... You might not have noticed that I used own/owning where normally we would use buy/buying.
Point is that I think that buying doesn't make you owner in wider terms. I might own a thing without buying it. Now that can be inherited or vested upon to. Buying doesn't entitle us the right to own. I may buy something that does not belong to me so I don't own it. It surely is much simpler to write about it than to understand it.
Coming back to base conversation that we started. Reason that I have not done anything concrete about it is that I am still not sure about will I be staying here for the rest of my life. Strangely, I haven't thought of anything else as well. That makes matter worse for me. Since I haven't thought anything else, it makes it more difficult to think about next course of action. These two thoughts are pitted against each other and more delayed this decision is, more difficult it would be to implement it. Another factor in this state of indecision is the means to arrange funding for the place. After all its buy and then own, ;-). Dad is willing to fund the entire purchase but at cost of land we own, agricultural land that is. I am somehow not ready for it. Anyhow, I am going to think about it and plan some action around it.
So long.....

Happening Times !!!

Its been a very happening period for quite some time now. Prabhjeet is married and is off to his honeymoon. We are observing a turn around in management's perspective about different processes and guidelines after a few client side escalations.  

First things first, Prabhjeet (NOT Prabhmeet) is now married to a lovely lady Raman. She is from Patiala and its an arranged marriage. Who says arranged marriages are a thing of past? All I have seen till now is arranged marriages. And I don't find anything wrong with them as I have seen them succeed and sustain for as long as I can remember. However I have also seen some broken arranged marriages, but I know that this one will go far and stand the test of time. I know because I know Prabh. He has what it takes to get to next level. The way he has moved on with life has made me look things in a new light. I always thought that trying to look for the light at the end of the tunnel is for losers. A tunnel tells you to go straight but its a 3D world and I can move to any direction to find news paths. Now I believe it too.The light has finally shone on me.

 

Let there be light and there is light.....

I WILL NOT DIE !!!

I got what i needed.. some motivation...a hug...Prabh sent me a virtual hug and lots of push....exactly what i needed in way i wanted.....I think thats why his surname is Dilbar...i always believed its on purpose...it can't be just coincidence...that was pre-meditated.

After this booster shot, i did what i do best..looked at it alternatively...and found myself in a good position...better light and best mindset...I now have only four words in my mind...UP, UP & AWAY... I am going to fly again... I WILL NOT DIE!!!

Now what !!!

I have come at a point where i think i need to ask this question. Its now or never... I don't think i have money to spare..Yeah I am invested..but how much...Its been two years here..on my own...but do I have something that i can offer to my family..not exactly. True that I have invested around 60000/- on my own..but is that what i have saved in two years...two bloody years...Even that doesn't have the damn same value.... Will i be able to marry myself off...Will i be able to own a house on my oen...I seriously need to think about it...

I came acroos this thought due to an incident today...Something that took our business to where it all started..maybe in worse position....This made me think that what can i contribute to help cover the loss and i got the answer in a flash....NOTHING!!!... Bloody nothing....

and its not money alone that i am worried about...Its about settling down in life...I want to know where i am headed to..Right now the answer is NOWHERE......I can't even scream and ask for directions...Everyone is in their own desert...Who on earth am i to ask anyone to help if they are nit sure where they are heading...This takes content out of my mind...keeping me sleepless for hours...i am getting sick of it day by day...

I don't what can helpme...i feel like hugging , a deep long hug....but i don't have anyone around...Hey Prabh, Cheenu, Nicky..........you listen boyz...I need someone...Comeover boyz....I wanna hug you guyz....

Back to Base II

I am back at my room in Gurgaon...Thankfully plan B did not fail....For reference, plan B was to board Shatabdi and ask Atul to come over to pick us up... Everything went as planned...for once....

i am feeling sleepy at this time as is everyone else. i am not guessing as its evident because they are already sleeping soundly....or so it seems...Its Diwali eve and as i said earlier i will or rather we will be spending the night in office doing nothing but routine work..if its routine at all that is......

I have noticed that I am writing a bit too much on here about my  office of which mostly is negative...On second thought i am not sure if its negative..but its not positive though..Its something in between...if that exists....Also I have started seeing things in meaner way of doing it...Getting back to people about what they have done...being them to beat them....and i have realized that i am not good at this game... I see another average rating this month...I will have to talk to Ritesh about it...

Jassi called in today from sydney....Just wanted to talk his heart out in absence of anyone else to do so...

So long...

Back to base...

Hey Frenzzz.....

I am back to base again...figuratively...Sorry for being late...AGAIN...I know i shouldn't be...I started writing this post three weeks ago at my room in Gurgaon...right now i am in Model town Jallandhar. Pathetic way to maintain a blog I say... Writing a post every now and then is not what blogging should be...If this is what I have to do then I should probably start a newsletter rather than a blog... Okay..enough of self derogation...

First things first...I am here in Jallandhar to attend Sunny's sister's marriage... Quite unusually I have LEARNT what I have KNOWN for quite a long time. "Anything that can go wrong will go wrong". We planned an almost foolproof trip to attend this marriage and be back in time... But like every other plan..this one also had failure modes and for us no failure mode action plans...

We were caught off guard but managed to squeeze out with a pronto plan B. Apparently its too early to say that plan B has suceeded because it goes into action tomorrow...Till than its all just a plan......and as I said a plan always has some failure modes...In any case we have a plan C in place as well...

Secondly I will be spending Diwali eve and night, both, in office... We will be enjoying the time though...Seemingly...sounds quite sarcastic...with kind of targets and work pressure that we have....talking about fun is ironic....but we still manage to get some light moments out of it....Office life that is...

For all who are waiting for any updates on my love life....there is no news...not any new news atleast....Talking about my love life somehow takes me to another surreal levels....I feel elated, confused, angry and pathetic at the same time....Sometimes i feel like I am trying to be someone I am not...on other times i feel like being on top of the world....but most of the time I feel like I cannot landup in any love life whatsoever.....talking about which reminds me that sometimes i feel like flirting a lot too...God knows where will I landup if I ever do....

Say Let there be light and there will be light....