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Monday, December 06, 2010

Content Versus Form... any takers ???

I had this thought in mind for quite sometime, but I wanted to discuss it with someone before writing about it. I am glad I delayed writing about it because I had another connecting thought that was on same lines yet on a different tangent.
   I am wondering if we are more concerned about 'Form' than 'Content'. In context to Sikhism, the original thought, it feels like that the leadership and the following by extension, are more concerned about the Form. Why else would otherwise there be a debate about supremacy of Dasam Granth over Adi Granth and/or vice-versa. Isn't it a direct contradiction to one of the basic principles of the rulebook, Non-Idolism. Shouldn't we be more concerned about the Bani collected in the books rather than which Book to consider as Guru. Moreover, what use it to have a Guru if we are not going to follow the Content. This way it doesn't come close to a decent reference book.    

   I will share another tangent to drive my point and keep it secular. We used to recite a pledge in our school. I choose to say recite because that is how it was.  It had a line that went like ,"and all Indians are my brothers and sisters.". ALL of the boys in senior classes used ti skip repeating this line after the primary orator(Yours truly), for the reason obvious enough. No one, however, realized that it did not mean what it said. It was not to be taken literally but in fact was a metaphor. It referred towards the understanding and feeling of mutual harmony and unity among fellow citizens. To consider all others as brothers and sisters was to promote better treatment of others as you would with your own people. 

What do you say Deshveer???

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Things to do before I DIE !!!

Its just a start. This list is bound to grow...

1) Eat a snake (cooked, of course)
2) Drive a Boxster
3) Sip a glass of Strawberry wine
4) Climb a mountain
5) Ride a Sailboat
6) Go for hiking in likings of Amazons
7) Public performance on stage
8) Guest lecture at an institution - DONE Feb 3, 2011 (Thanks to Nikhil)
9) Travel in a commercial Truck (wanted to since my early days, Thanks Anshu for reminding)
10) Travel to Hemkunt Sahib
11) Learn a foreign language other than English - Work in progress (French, Self learning)
12) Learn to play a Musical Instrument
13) Promote hockey.(Any way)
14) Attend a live concert. - Done Oct 5, 2013 (Jashn-e-Ghulam Ali)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Trust & Trustworthiness - Is there a frame of context ???

I believe that doing by choice is greater than doing by force and that makes us chose our friends over our family. Among other things that form a friendship is the trust that we put into the relation. What I am thinking is that how much trust can you put into something. It is of course we, who decide to trust; but is there any limit or 'box' in which the boundaries of trust can be observed. Is there a limit to trust that can be put into something or someone? Do we show varying level of trust for the same person or thing at different times? This of course is true at different levels of relations or usage, but what I am trying to decipher is that if it is true for a constant level of relationship. For example, does a Husband show varying level of trust in his wife after, say 25 years of married life? 
  
     I guess the point of discussion is that if trust like everything else has a context too. That would, however, mean that I would trust or not trust someone depending upon the current circumstances and not based on my own judgement or conscience. And when that happens, do relations sustain or do they just snap off? Now some of us may confuse it with level of confidence that you might show in someone but there is difference so subtle that many people just don't differentiate between two. For example, If someone asks me to lend my car to him, I may not have confidence in him as a driver but I may trust him that he would tell me the right thing about his driving skills. So you see what I am trying to reach at. Any calls?

Monday, September 20, 2010

A week in my life - Day 2

0140 Hrs - Watching the climax of A fistful of Dollars. Sergio improved a lot when it comes to next two films he made after this one. Not too very gripping story. It couldn't keep me concentrated like the other two. For the record, other two I am talking about are 1) For a few Dollars more and 2) The good, The Bad & The Ugly.

1100 Hrs - With help of circumstantial evidence, I feel the day isn't going to be as bad as I speculated. Had a hearty breakfast and am off to work.

1300 Hrs - I couldn't have been more wrong. Its a typical Monday. People are clamoring like anything and most of it is due to non satisfaction arising from bad commitments. I guess it is the underlying assumption that makes us do it. We assume We should be more careful when it comes to committing

2330 Hrs - Time sure has flown. It has been a quick long day, if you know what I mean. The day was so bad that I didn't get time to write anything. There wasn't anything to report anyways. Just what I expected; frustrated customers, missed deadlines, bad commitments and to top it all, The ignorance. Whoever said ignorance is bliss has surely one of these days. Reading Garfield year 1983; my birth year.
Will sleep soon.

A week in my life - Day 1

1030 Hrs - Woke up to the first day of the week, after a long night of watching movies and comedy circus over YouTube. Since Manish is out of town, I need to get to office. No off in sight for this week. Its going to be a long day.

1355 Hrs - Sitting in lab. Hopefully I will be able to get out by 1700 Hrs and have some time to myself this evening. Played ,and won, a hand of Solitaire with real cards. It really is more fun to play it with real cards.


1400 Hrs - Frustration has just begun for the day. With people busy in their own little world, chaos is inevitable. One person is busy in impressing a girl and others are busy nit-picking on him. I like it.


1620 Hrs - There are some things that make me feel bad about tomorrow. I have a strong feeling that tomorrow will be a long day as I see a couple of items brewing to become conflicts and a heated exchange of words. Unfortunately I don't have control over it as its already beyond point of control due to indescribable reasons. What to say??? What to do??? 


1830 Hrs - Standing at a roadside eatery (literally) wolfing down mutton chops with white bread. Doesn't look very hygienic; but what is little hygiene when it comes to eating.


2200 Hrs -  Started watching movies that I intended to watch during the day. I got Sin city and  A fistful of Dollars lined up. No dinner for me after the celebrated eat-out.


2359 Hrs - Still watching movies. Took a pause to watch the last over of Mumbai Indians Vs Bangalore RC match. MI won by two runs.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Gen X or Gen C - Are we really confused...

With whatever happened to me or my friends over past few days, I am forced to think that we are a generation of confused lot. If you think that calling the whole generation confused is a bit too much, believe me there are more like me out there than you can imagine. 


  No one seems to know what he or she wants. What everyone knows is that he wants something else. No idea what that is, but still; something else. Something big. And this includes me too. I don't say it is wrong to move on to or dream about bigger things; but the problem here is we don't know what we want to move on to. Is it big money, or is it better position, or is it better personal life or is it better spiritual life. We want big money but we also think that money is not required for satisfied being. We think that only we are responsible for what we get, yet we have other reasons for anything wrong happened to us. We believe that we have control over our destiny and we can change it but still want to be spiritually liberated and close to God. We want to be close to someone forever and still think that marriage is non-essential. We want everything and yet yearn to be so disconnected and free. We have this craving of being approachable to everyone at all times and still crack at the availability of connecting technology. 


I guess you get my point. All that I say applies to me as well and I go through all these things as well. What do you say??? I will be waiting......

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Temperament

I was talking to someone today about his temperament and how it, seemingly, has changed over the past.
I asked him if it is his changed temper or has he just being to the point like I am. And at that very moment I realized that my way, of being to the point, must be perceived by some to be rude or at least in anger.
 
In this medium of online written communication, like FB, Orkut or EMails, how are we supposed to determine what the other one is trying to say, contextually. I mean, the words may be the same but how you say it make THE DIFFERENCE. For an example, telling someone to Shut-up may be taken as rude whereas it could have been written pretty amicably. How on earth can you decipher the tone of a written sentence? In a language where you can't decide what a word, like run, means unless read in full context, how are we supposed to capture the emotions of short comments. My request, please don't write short sentences or you risk being misunderstood.

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Fear or Faith....

It's been a long time since I remembered God; and with this remembrance came the realization that it was due to fear and not faith. Fear and faith are so overlapping that people don't realize if they are being fearful or faithful. Most of the religious activities are performed out of sheer fear of unknown or unspoken. Fear is so dominant that practically no one thinks of deviating a bit even if its logical.
 Age old practices are still being followed without judging their relevance or knowing the reason behind them. Faith should set us to be free of fear and not the other way around. We are controlled by fear and still try to define faith and its results and repercussions. We are highly confused between discipline and faith. Whereas it is okay to be strict in discipline towards the realization; I think it is free will that should decide the form of faith.  Any guesses????

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Prince of Persia..

Finished watching Prince of Persia - SOT... With much spent on sets, special FX and action sequences, film fails to deliver with wafer thin plot and abrupt ending. Climax with its blatant hole in continuity and obvious contradiction to stated facts makes you wonder if the makers were taking viewers for granted. Action sequences are quick and makers have made the effort to include all in-game moves except that they are too short to notice for someone who has never played POP 3D or later. Coolest moves like wall run are too brief to notice even for an avid gamer. Action sequences are so scripted and predictable that you wonder if you are watching the persian version of Mortal Kombat. Overall, Disney tried to do in one movie what game makers couldn't do in 8 game versions...complete and finish the story....And Disney failed badly this time....

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Religion...Personal or Public

I have been fielding this question for a long time...Had quite an argument with my mom over it. She was angry about me not going to any holy place in general and Gurudwara in particular. She is of the view that I have started to believe in non-existence of God. Quite an oxymoron there, a believer who does not believe. 
 I think I am on verge of some spiritual breakthrough. Not the 'Nirvana' kind but still quite pressing. Right now I grade myself as an agnostic, a spiritual agnostic, with a bias towards existence of God. I believe that its better not to go to a holy place than to go and be distracted. It is of no use to stand in the queue and look for some chicks and not concentrate on what we came there for. It should be a highly intimate experience than just being present at the right place at the right time. After all it is for our own benefit that we need religion and go to religious places. So is it good enough to just be there. 


What I don't understand how my being a non-believer effects others. I know they are my family and dear ones but isn't religion immensely personal matter. I believe that religion is so personal that it should be okay to have people with multiple religions in the same family. Why is it such an issue to be convert from a religion to another. Talking about Sikhism, weren't the first Sikhs the converts. Why did some people chose to convert to Sikhism and some didn't. If Sikhism was the only true religion then everyone should have converted. It apparently did not happen. The reason I think is that our Gurus did not believe so too. They never proclaimed that following them was the only route to Nirvana. It was, however, one of the ways. Gurus did not go to Gurudwaras in search of Nirvana. Gurudwaras were erected because Gurus were there. Shrines and holy places are just placeholders to remind us that people have raised their spiritual level to such heights that they are treated as equivalent to God. As they say in Punjabi, "asi ishara karan wale dee ungli vekh rahe haan na kee ishare vall

Friday, April 30, 2010

Personal...or Professional

I have been thinking for a long time to write about what is going in on my mind. I, however, chose to divert it to other interests; for example, Movies, Novels and even Pornography. I guess the reason for it was the complexity of the feelings that I wanted to get out. Maybe they were too complex to form the words for. Yet, I am trying to do so now.

I think it matters not how I feel about certain things going around me. What matters is that how it all sums up and ends like. I am not trying to force my point of view of view on others but I want them to look at things from a different angle. Everyone of them. People have formed perceptions and the worse thing is that they are not willing to talk about it. I have learned from my experiences that keeping things to yourself doesn't help anybody; and I mean anybody.

I have people say that sex is the basic instinct of every species. I believe differently. I think that primary basic instinct for any specie is THE SURVIVAL; and this is what pains me most. We are letting the instinct to fore go for in lieu of our personal differences. I guess what I am trying to say is that it does not take anyone anywhere alone. Like I always say, its never about place, its never about time, its always about people. I am confused by all that is happening around me. I am confused as I don't know whether to be angry, pick fight with someone or let the things roll on their own. It seems like destiny is playing its hand and I. for the most part, can't do anything about it.

HOPING FOR THE BEST; PREPARING FOR THE WORST.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Missing Someone - By Deshveer

1)
wen ur lone, wanting some1 2 b back

wen u love some1, u won't b able 2 move out of the trap,

with everything u will want tht some1 to b around

so u can share n make her smile but all u hav is urself, memories, n long miles

wishing 4 impossible, 4 tht miracle 2 happen wishing is there some1
who can help,

with people walking n smiling u 2 try 2 smile n c whether tht makes u happy ,

but wen u look at urslef, its nothing, just u n ur thoughts wishing
to hear her talk,

n u find new voices talking n smiling n u wonder how many of them r
actually happy,

n does tht even make ne difference, if u can smile wen ur up against the tide .

u can move on with all the things u feel but tht loneliness still
lingers there trying 2 shake u n make u feel down...


not all who luv r blind, some of us r just 2 kind, n 4giv 2 much n
never speak our mind, n at times get 2 hear u hav wasted 2 much of ur
money n time

its no use to sit n waste the time, shud just move on n never allow
memories 2 let u down,

its all part of plan and matter of time, who gets whom n whose going
u don't mind,

then y 2 sulk n think of giving up this precious life of thine, wen
all u hav to do is look up n c smiling faces those look so fine,

every1z troubled within, n hardly few happy, no matter wht u do
therez something lacking cause wht u don't c is wht u hav within is
precious dime,

every1 says grass on other side looks green thts because wht u hav
looses its sheen,

y o fool to pride in whts not urs n then cry wen thts gone, wen
everything in life sayz nothingz permanent so just move on.

everything in lifez just a matter of time, few hours, dayz, few years
of mine, i shud enjoy all b4 time runs out n everythings left behind

wht difference does it make whether u like, 1, none or thousands of
fine felines, wen all u'll get is few moments of pleasure n then
lonely life of mine, wen all i need waz just one n 1 wud hav been
equally fine,


but still the fight with loneless is all mine no matter whom m with
somewhere heart will still b crying

want for more will still be there no matter how high or far i shine,

unless somehow ur back n everything's fine.


2)

memories of sweetness



u think the life's lone,

as the thing tht u want is gone,

the softness kiled n anger born,

whom 2 blame urself or person u adorned,

all u ever wanted waz, 2 build something out of love for her n
sweetness inborn,

but wht 2 do wen u c tht the luvs no more,

n even the wish of carrying the memories of sweetness becomes a dream forgone.



wht 2 do wen ur imagination's all weired,

as being with the person u like is the thing tht u now fear,

something close 2 heart becomes a distant gear,

things u said, felt n believed once, becomes unreal,

whts the past 2 me, m much stronger better here,

the easy way 2 4get some1 is to get a new dear,

but there r some to whome wht they say n do is very real,

very few hav understanding n stick 2 it as its not easy to steer,

i still wish 2 carry our memories of sweetness

u must b thinking...

even now u wish to carry memories of sweetness ?

Lord, i hope hez not crazy, u help him m out of here.

Desh



3)
Missing


the lines that I write, hope they help end a fight.

when its dark, v pray to God 2 throw some light,

n wonder, hez got all the might, but then y is he out of sight,

I wish he cud catch a flight, n take me out of my plight,

cause I m missing sum1.




I think then he came with an open heart n said, buddy y don't u write.

I gave u brains & a wonderful profile,

so wht if its dark n u hav long lonely miles,

every1's closet hav some bad files,

even the 1's who think, they r the best, cries,

believe me, I hav heard them say,

I m missing sum1.




then i asked, well i hope , she smiles,

but y my files, full of sadness pile?

n i got a big smile, while i wonder y,

he answered sweetly, c she 2 had smiled,

n i wonder, m i still missing sum1... ?

well..., now at least..., not 2night :)


Desh

4)
Gudbies


where shud i find the words, tht will have the might,

the might, to break the chains, that hold u tight,

who knows, whts going 2 become of this life,

therez so much peace n happiness inside,

but we tend 2 believe otherwise,

4 so long gud lord gave me respite,

but then as if stuck by a light,

i fell for thing know as luv life,

(Despite the fact tht,) though she said, Desh expectations will rise,

She waz scared of it, like a patient 4m a contagious parasite,

I thought i'll giv her the life,

so tht she cud find the stability, peace & happiness inside,

but then as if sum1 had turn off the lights,

things went off, n i didn't wonder y,

and true 2 my self i didn't expect her 2 call, mail or write,

but still my heart cried, n reasons were not french fries,

n not as people say, whtever she said were all lies,

But, cause of all the heart felt gudbies.


Desh


5)

Happiness





If in ur head,lies a quest,

2 find the best, n u can't giv it a rest,

B my guest, don't b scared its not a test,

Spend sum time with me,n u might understand the rest,

Tht happiness lies within.



Life's like, people's faith ,on earth's crust,

tht it wudn't blow n reduce them 2 dust.

But v live, v build, still v trust,

Though v die, v break still there's mistrust,

But don't worry my friend, happiness lies within.



So wht, if 1 day, they like u, n the next they dislike u,n r ready 2 fight u,

It can feel like dog u like, is abt 2 bite u.

It might even fright u?

Well the truth might surprise u,

It happened cause u looked 4 happiness outside u,

But don't worry my friend, happiness is not with person who likes & dislikes u.

The happiness lies within.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Shakespearean question..To..or not to...

My parents have taken it as a personal battle to marry me. I, however, don't think that I am ready for it yet. My thoughts wander to the age old question, answer to which, is the very basic of human nature and foundation of the modern society. Why should I marry or Must I marry? I will try and steer my thoughts to some reasons or justifications of this institution.

It may sound cliche, but human is a social animal. The differentiation is however purely theoretical. We are in constant need of companionship and want someone who can take off load from us. This 'load' can be emotional, physical or sexual. I think that the need of having a dedicated listener is big relief for everyone and also the reason for most of the arguments in a relation. On the contrary if everyone is a good listener then who will be a good speaker. Anyways; Coming back to the point, It sometimes get very difficult to contain the emotions within ourselves and we look for someone with whom we can share all that we want and still be as sure as we never talked about it to anyone.

Another reason that I think is foundational to the concept is that we constantly seek to evaluate ourself. Being married, attaches a tag to you and establishes that you are not worthless and there will always be someone to whom you are in(valuable). I also believe that this is one of the implied facts of being in love. People tend to things for people they love; that they normally would try to avoid. That is why people feel dejected after breakups and go to extremities like committing suicide. The feeling of being worthy for someone to command a dedicated life is pretty overwhelming I think.

Sexuality is another reason given by some to marry. Well, it gives you a supposedly dedicated partner for sex and you are allowed to use the right freely to your will. However, I think it is more of a civil and social matter. To give you a point of view on my thoughts, I don't understand the difference between consented sex and rape; as far as performing sex goes. Sex is OK for two people as long as they have consented to it but is considered rape if one of them disagrees. This seems like more of a social issue and matter of mentality or point of view. What if we consider sex as only what it is. Sex. Coming back to the point, I don't feel that Sex is the reason for which people marry. I ,however, definitely agree that reproduction is a reason for people getting married. Now, Sex and reproduction are overlapping functions and can never be mutually exclusive or independent. It is implied that reproductions in inherently dependent on Sex. This, however, is again a matter of how you look at it.

I would love to have your thoughts on it. How much do you agree or disagree with me. You think that there is something that is the reason for marriage? Go ahead add to post.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock.....

Hard hand of realty has struck again and I have lost another relation. I choose to say a 'relation' instead of 'relative' the person in question was a singular relation; unlike uncles and aunts and brothers and sisters. This is the third time in last two months that I have been forced to realize that everyone has a limited time on this plain. Clock is ticking for everyone.
This also makes me feel more inclined to meet people because you never when is your last time of meeting. You can never be sure of what is, let alone what will be. It seems like Dementors are doing there job well, sucking all the hope and energy out of people.

Lets make sure that we meet people because you never know....

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Pent up thoughts - Part II

Given the condition that I am writing after a long pause, I guess continuing the thought chain would be a futile exercise. It would however be similar to earlier post because not many things have changed although a lot of water has passed under the bridge. Many of you might think that I am off to my same old ranting but that is the whole idea behind this blog; to let the thoughts flow out and leave me stress free which in itself is great job.

There has been a lot of challenges at work lately. The numbers are not as what we require. It seems like that all of the efforts are going down the drain and this whole thing would soon burst. However, another brighter point of view is that; whatever may be the case; it will end soon. And when it ends, it will be all a wonderful walk thereon. Another angle of looking at things is that this is a loop and it will only end once we stop pursuing to finish it, because a circle has no starting or ending point.

On personal front, I am on the verge of biggest evolutionary breakthrough of MY life; to marry or not to marry is the question. I have been under immense pressure to marry sooner than later. I, on other hand, am not sure about how to proceed with it. Somehow I don't feel like getting married at all. My past has little to do with it but it is the current environment that is giving me second thoughts. In effect, I am afraid to marry. Second reason that I am afraid to marry is that I am not sure if I am settled or not. Response to question; whether it is Yes or No; will be same, what ,when and how. May be this feeling will improve when things will start looking bright at work. I may sound a bit skeptical but the truth is that things are not rosy enough to contemplate a bright future at the moment. It is getting tougher everyday.
but the bottom line is
WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, TOUGH GETS GOING...
HAMARI HEE MUTTHI MEIN AAKAASH SAARA, JAB BHI KHULEGI CHAMKEGA TAARA

Friday, January 15, 2010

Pent up thoughts - Part I

I don't think it needs to be told that it has been a long time since my last post. There were two major reasons behind it. One was that the thoughts that I wanted to pen down might have offended someone and I didn't want it to happen at that time. Second, anything that I might have written may have been interpreted as 'whining'. For all who think that all I do here is 'whine' here; I am afraid they will have to be disappointed for some time becuase venting was the primary reason for my starting to write in the first place. About the first reason for my absence, I guess that moment has passed and I can safely write down my thoughts.

I have realized a lot of things in the past. First and foremost is that no matter how good your advice is, its of no use unless the beneficiary realises so. You can advice him/her for all you want but if it falls on deaf ears, all your smartness is in vain. Second, wherever you go there is always a Johhanna Jameson(Editor of Daily bugle in Spiderman series.) who understands a point of view only if he can translate every 'WE' to 'I'. Third, as said by one of our rivals long back, Two minds may think alike but three minds can never do it. Fourth, deciding is tough process and it takes a lot of communication and discussion to reach at a common consensus even if everyone has the same goal in mind. Primary reason for which is the different paths decided by everyone.

To be Continued....

Saturday, December 05, 2009

Filling the Gap

Just two days and we have a gap...Whatever happened to daily blogging...Anyway...It has been a busy productive day...I attended a session for home intrusion and access control systems, something that I wanted to get on to for quite sometime. t is the next thing that I want to add to our portfolio of products and services. Now it is just a matter of time and some tinkering with equipment. I think we can do something in this direction. In any case, it is a whole Line Of Business in its own.

Another thing that I thought over today was to streamline some internal processes. The one I need to urgently correct is the one that I started onto initially. For some reasons it was sidelined for some time. However, I think that before I move on to correct something else I need to enforce self-discipline as well. I felt that I have been very slack on many matters for quite some time now. Well, all is not lost yet. This can be corrected in short time if I impose self discipline.I have already some short-terms for myself to begin with. Lets see where we reach with it. I will be out of town for around three days starting Sunday, so I may not be able to post daily; but I will try and write something daily that I may post later. Bye for now...
God help all...

Dated 4 December, 2009

Thursday, December 03, 2009

Fighting Impulse...

The day hasn't been as hectic or busy as I thought it would be. Most of it was practically wasted doing nothing, except maybe thinking about settling some chores. I think that is maybe becuase of the envirnoment I am currently in. Most of it however was my own will and accord.It seems like I have stopped approaching things as I once did. In retrospection, I miss being a quality analyst. Now, this is purely genric terms and in nomeans my days at IBM. This is more about the learning and style of work that I adopted. That was the major part of my thoughts today in the "wasted time".

The very thought that I am 'almost there' in everything that I do hit me like a rock. I somehow am missing the bulls eye. Now, it may be just a rough patch I may be doing something wrong. Maybe this is how it works. I don't know. I don't think that I can talk about it. Strangely I, who usually have something to talk about anything, don't have exact words to describe the feeling. It feels like I am losing my grip on things around me. I know what you are thinking Anshu but this is not frustration or aggravation or anything like that. Its just the feeling which I don't have a word for. In my language, Saala kuch khaas samajh nahi aa reha. Maybe I should act upon your advice. Let the flowing waters flow and keep on doing what I can. This however puts me in a different position. My nature won't let me watch everything from the sidewalk. Somehting inside will always push me to be in there and try and do what I can. I guess I will let time decide what should be the case. Maybe the recent incidents at the workplace would change some things around me. It may be also be just an impulsive action.

This turns my thoughts to another nuisance that I have to deal a lot with. Impulse. It is so strongly inherent in the system that it is almost impossible to fight with. Major reason that you can't oppose an impulsive action is that both legitimate effort and impulsive action start at the same note. They differ at how they end. A legitimate change or action would sustain whereas an impulse would soon fizz out. Anyways, I will keep my fingers crossed and hope for the best.

Dated: 2nd December, 2009

Wednesday, December 02, 2009

Daily Dose...

I have decided to write a post a day from today onwards... I guess if I can sustain it for a week, it will continue for longer; Of course, a week in itself is long time. Due to increased frequency of posts and personal nature, most of the content with pretty regular stuff, since this blog is primarily for venting out and sharing my mind with anyone who cares to go through it. I reckon that most of the times it would be more or less of a daily journal.

Moving on, Cheenu wrote a very strong, and a very valued for that matter, reply to my earlier post(read it in comments). I think most of the times what you really want is for someone to listen and respond. No worldly words or pearls of words, but only to tell you that he is there. lately, I was thinking about our(me and Cheenu) discussions with kikki deedi. With her back in India on a vacation, the thoughts have started to flash increasingly. I was imagining a conversation with her where she might ask me why I didn't meet more often like old days. Only fitting reply I could think was that we had Cheenu back then so it was easy to meet up since there were three of us. Chances of anyone feeling lazy was 33% which has now increased to 50% since there is only me and Nicky here.

For the more regular part, the day was quite a bit for me. For once, I know what future holds. Tomorrow is going to be very hectic. Mind it that I said 'hectic' and not busy. I have more than a couple of engagements and it is going to be a difficult to balance all the balls, especially with Manish involved in one. I don't think it was much of a day other than planning and setting up things for tomorrow. In any case, its too late to continue writing but I think I will be back. So long...

Dated 1st December, 2009

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Khyaal...

Aam naalo hatt ke eh post mai punjabi ch likhan dee soch reha haaN..issdi vajah koi bahuti political ya religious nahi...gall sirf ikk rau dee hai..ikk flow dee hai... mere khyal naal je koi kuch express karna chaahanda hai te ohde layee sab toh wadiya zariya ohdi roz dee bolchaal dee language hee ho sakdi hai...hun eh koi single language vee ho sakdi hai aur 3-4 languages dee composition vee; jiveN ke mai use kar reha..Punjabi, English te Urdu...

khair mudde dee gall eh ke picchle kujh dinaa toN mai kaafi busy reha haan...par eh busy koi iss tarah da busy jiven mai hona pasand karda haaN...mere khyal naal apni picchlee kise blog post vich maiN iss baare zikr kar chukkeya haaN...I don't recall exactly but it was about being busy and being under hectic schedule...mai eh bilkul nahi keh reha ke mainu iss busy-ness ne pareshaan keeta ja mainu waste jehi feeling aayee, but kite na kite eh feeling zaroor see, and for that matter hale vee hai, ke inni saari mehnat da result oh nahi nikalna jo socheya see...kyonki picchle chaar mahineya ch mai eh zaroor dekhya ke intentions da sab diyaaN OK ne aur sab kuch karna vee chaahNde ne..but implementation vele kuch na kuch game gol ho jaaNdi hai....oh sab gallaaN jo planning stage vich honiyaa chahidiyaa see oh implementation de vele nikladiyaaN ne...

ho sakda eh sab ikk shikayat ya cribbing lag reha hove par haqeeqat ehi hai ke planning aur implementation de vich da gap cover nahi ho paa reha...galti shayad meri vee hai ke mai plan nahi kar paa reha,par at the back of my mind issue ehi haike somewhere deep down I know ke it will all be manipulated at the end...Well in any case, I will do what I have to do, no matter what the results are...

te eh kuch lines mere khyal da nateeja e...eh kuch disconnected thoughts ne and may not mean anything to you...read at your own risk. :-D
So long...God help all!!!

kujh yaar mere pehlaN, te kujh nave bane;
eh khade rehan, main naal inna de jitt laiNda sansaar je chaahNda...

ikk mai, te ikk mai hee haaN mer kol hune;
kee kar laiNda mai karna tainu pyar je chaahNda...

dil vick kasak jehi hurdum ikk utthdi e;
kar laiNda koshish karni mai ikk vaar je chaahNda....

mudhna wapis shayad mumkin reha nahi;
mudhna mai ikk vaar te kee lakh vaar je chaahNda...

ikk tere baajh eh jagg hanera lagda e;
rabb kar diNda rushnai oh ikk vaar je chaahNda...

par, rabb nu vee kee dosh davaa iss baare hun;
rabb sadd laiNda ke saddna mai ikk vaar je chaahNda...